So i know no one ever visits my xanga site anymore but that's ok cause i never do either. lol. So i ask myself why i'm even writing this blog....i'm not quite sure. I guess since i know no one is reading this then i'm just writing it for me...it's just something i need to do i guess. This also could be like my official last post on xanga....i might not actually delete my site cause i'm nosy and like to get those e-mails telling me what other people have updated. But nonetheless, this will most likely be my last post ever unless i get inspired again like i am right now.

Anyway...to what i actually want to say: Life goes on but what really matters is whether you choose to go with it or not. When i was in high school, i never thought i would ever actually graduate. I wanted to but i didn't at the same time. I didn't want to leave the normality i had lived all those years. I knew i had to go to college, i knew that i had to leave my friends, i knew i would probably never talk to my high school friends again but that was something i did not want to happen. I didn't want to go on with my life, i wanted time to stop so i could just live in those moments forever. In the back of my mind i knew that wasn't possible....so i went on with life, i went to college, i left my friends but yet i tried to fight it but i knew nothing was going to change. Knowing that i couldn't change anything, i stopped fighting, life was going on and i was going to go with it. 

So where am i now? Well i'm in Galion, Ohio waiting to move into my apartment in Grand Rapids, Michigan. I've been through 2 years of college, i've lost all of my friends from high school except 1 (Buddy).....when i say lost i mean that we really aren't friends anymore, we've become more of just acquaintances. The reason why i say this is because we no longer talk to each other except for that occasional hi we say to each other whenever we happen to run into each other. I'm leaving the life i once loved to start a new one. I'm transferring to Grand Valley State University to get the education i want, I'm moving to Michigan to live the life i want, and as life goes on i go on with it.

So as you go on with life never fear the worst because the best may be right ahead.

As i say farewell, i say goodbye for now because we never know when our paths may meet again. As we go on with life may we never forget those good times we had or those friendships we thought would last a life time.

In the future may we meet again but in the mean time, have fun my friends!

Well school has been going pretty good....getting work done, hanging with my friends, road trip to see Red Jumpsuit Apparatus in concert (along with The Audition and Madina Lake) yeah, all was going good until today....Yes until today!!

 I got my mail and it's never fun to get a letter from the school saying that as of now i can't come back next semester until i pay my balance which just so happens to be $5,088.68 And i really have no clue how i'm gonna pay that off. My parents have no money and I personally can't get any loans cause i have absolutely no credit whatsoever. I just got a Chase credit card last week when i opened an account there but i'm not using it cause i have no money to pay it off. So yeah....the whole getting loans thing doesn't work....

Well, here's hoping i can pay it off or at least transfer to a school that doesn't cost so much or something.....